Get comfy. This is a long (& overdue) post.

It's been awhile since I last posted. The month of September and beginning of October were mentally draining for me.

The organization I work for experienced a sudden loss of a large portion of our income which forced an almost immediate restructure and downsizing of staff. So within about a months time we learned about the loss, we watched our senior leadership and board have meeting after meeting about our restructure, and waited to hear how many and who would be laid off. I was grateful that they kept the staff as updated on the goings on as possible, but the not knowing took a toll on all of us. They announced a week before the actual lay offs that we would go from a staff of 43 to 29, along with some other pertinent administrative cuts.

It was just 2 years ago that I was laid off from Girl Scouts; that lay off was so shocking and devastating to me that I couldn't help but be influenced by it this time around. I tried hard to stay positive and neutral while at work, but holding in my nerves all day meant that coming home I was stressed and exhausted. Because of my previous experience I knew that it was just as likely to be me as it was not to be me, and I knew I needed to put my faith in our leadership, but it was a hard few weeks because our work still needed to go on in the meantime.

I was lucky enough to not be laid off. In fact, I probably got the best deal of everybody. I went from part time to full time, and my job moved from being split between reception and human resources to being fully in HR. I am so grateful to have the opportunity to continue working with this organization and to be more fully immersed in a field that I want to be working in, to learn from people who are really good at what they do.

We're now in the transition phase in my office, where we have to figure out how to continue to provide the best services we can without the 14 people who were laid off. It'll get better, and in fact, each day has gotten better.

So although I am feeling good that things will work themselves out, it did take a toll on me in the meantime. I didn't have the energy or will when I came home to do much cooking or cleaning or blogging. So I fell into bad eating habits and even worse writing/blogging habits. I'm getting back on track, with both. Starting here.